HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CC

Happy Bday to u
Happy Bday to u
Happy Bday to dear CC (excuse me...Candid Confessions.. not call center..:P)
Happy Bday to u

Ehm Ehm now its my chance to say a few words about CC....Yup CC has turned 1 yr old ..(forget about the date..) and I m so proud of her..:)
I remember the time when I had no clue what blogging was all about .My dearest brother S and one of my family friends K..would go on and on about writing a new post and I would be like
" Helloooo what is blog spot..what do u do over thr..You just write wtever happens ??...isnt that weird ..what if people read it..blah blah and more blah"....Got many explanations ...( you know the type of explanations u can get from a blogger boy and his friend ..;))

In Aug I thought I should also give it a try ..I mean come on..one should try out different things in life right..so I wrote my first post..

Peep Into My LIfe
When I read this now..my heart bleeds from within..sob ..sucha saaaad story..but that time was totally different.My job was like an unhappy marriage..and I was desperately seeking for a divorce.The mere look at my HUSBAND's face would increase my frustration level and on the top of it my MOTHER-IN-LAW (Boss..:P) was pathetic. (Bigggggg Boooooo to her)
But then things started changing. I began to notice things and do things that made me happy..in short I tried to make things work in this terrible marriage. I would spend time thinking on what I would write next instead of cribbing. Everywhere..in the bus..in a rickshaw..in a park or my bank I would wait for weird people to do something strange ..something funny ,so that I could write about them and feel immense pleasure..CC gave me a reason to live and to enjoy..:)
UNBOUNDED STUPIDITY and FRUSTRATION UNLIMITED were two such real incidents .

Then atlast I got a divorce from my marriage and it was bye bye to mom-in-law...:). The new office was cool ..(TouchWood). The rest of the posts were written with the new office in mind.

STUPID CUPID is one of my favorite posts. I felt so stupid after the incident . But seriously those 5 days when I had spoken to this person X (on Intranet of my office) where the best days of my life...X rotated my life by 360 deg and then back to 0 deg.But cheers to X !!..we hav been gr8 friends..:)

Then came the phase when I wrote my first love story SWEET OGRE
Faced criticism like anything from those who know me..70% people were shocked..I don't know why..I guess because they thought I could never write such a thing..and secondly because 100 % people thought it was my story..(Huh !! )...but I thought what the hell..this was one such place where I could write wt ever i wanted..and nobody can dictate terms here..its my world..!! (and there was seriously nothing in it..you wont believe it, but I had to put a PS in that post..which was initially not there..!!)

Then there were my flashback wala posts like
CHANDRAKANTA, NOSTALGIA:SCHOOL DAYZ, ZZZZzzz
and some other incidents LAGA KI CHAAY PE BULAYA HAI
It has been a gr8 journey...cheers to CC
Ohh my speech is over.. yeah plz help your self,can have a bite from that cake..:) ( and keep some for me tooo...:P )

Was He Worth Even A Tear ?

It was a usual day for Pallu,Like always she had come to office on time and had found her mailbox flooded with official mails and forwards .Suddenly she comes across a "Hi" msg from some Abhi Subramanium. Surprised, she reads the msg :
" Heyy Pallu.. I am Abhi ..I m sure u must hav guessed by now that even I work in the same company ..but different location and a different dept ,saw ur mail id in one of the Fwds..thought I shud make frnds with a fellow Mallu..hope u don't mind !!"
Mind??Ofcourse she did not mind..but she hardly knew him..and as it is, she never spoke much to strangers.. especially boys...but just in order to have some one to talk to , she decides to reply.." Hi.. no i don't mind btw wts ur job profile??.."
This was the beginning of a "friendship" that changed her life completely..

Everyday she would find one mail from Abhi..initially she is a bit reluctant..but gradually she gives in to his friendly and warm nature.As time passes by.. one mail per day become two.. then three..and then 30 mails per hour..Abhi was smart.. would crack witty jokes..and his jokes found a perfect listener in Pallu. Now she would wait eagerly to go to office and see his reply for her earlier sent mail..and the new things that they would be talking about.With each passing day they found a new meaning to their friendship ..they would share their joys,sorrows,likes ,dislikes..everything..just everything. His small small things made her happy..like when she comes to know his luv for football..even she tries to learn it for him.She confides in him ..how she had never spoken to any boy before him..and so on. Pallu's life had been very simple and boring ...and now it was Abhi who had put that much needed joy in her life.
Abhi : "Hey u know.. thr is this guy Kshitij in my office ..and rt now he is reading my mails..wait i will just shoo scat him away..;)"
Pallu : "Hahah..vaise tell kshitij I like his name a lot.."
Abhi : "Wha?? u like this name..wts so special in it "
Pallu : "It means Beyond the Horizon..and i like this concept..u know wt ... some day wen i have my own kids..i will name my son Kshitij..;)"
Abhi : "Ohh yaa ??..and wt if u have a girl? "
Pallu : "Gud question..but i have never thought of that..u have any name to suggest?"
Abhi : "Hmm well lemme c..we will never her Scotty..wts say..even i luv this name..."
Pallu : "Scotty???...en den gyalum ..(what rubbish ) wt a name..and btw wt do u mean by " we will name her scotty"
Abhi : "y? wont i have any rights on her..;) "
Pallu : "ha ha ha ha..gud one.."
Abhi : "ok ok seriously wts wrong wid that..we both are Mallu's..we both do understand each other perfectly..so wts wrong with that?"
Pallu : "ehm ehm..sir wt r u talking abt?? "
Abhi : "That we may have a future together..:) "
Pallu: "hmmm ya u r a nice person..but we have never seen each other?..we only have spoken on mails and phone !! "
Abhi :"ya rt..we have been talking to each other every single day from the past 6 months..and as it is we both are settled in our jobs..and btw the fact is i have seen ur pic..and i think u r quite decent..by chance i happened to see ur fairwell pic ...;)"
Pallu : "ohh shit...i knew it..Raj showed it to u..not fair..even i want to c ur pic..and this time for god sake.. i dont want to c ur childhood snap..I want a very recent pic"
Abhi : "ok Babes..its ur lucky day ..u will get it rt now "
Snap was sent . Pallu opens it with much eagerness and expectation..the picture has a group photo of all cranky looking people..she finds it difficult to make out which one can be Abhi..when reality is broken out..she is not happy with the result..he is a bit fat , and not at all like the image she had in mind..her friends in office see that snap and say.."hey who is this baby elephant..??..ur boyfriend??". Pallu is obviously hurt.. but do looks matter so much??..he was a nice guy..with a heart of gold..very helpful and he was her very good friend...she makes them all quite and replies back "Nice pic "
Abhi : "Only nice pic??..u didnt find me sexy or anything "
Pallu : "Hmmm no...but my friend here thinks u r vey s**y..I thought u wr decent..:)..yaar..looks don't matter much to me..not every1 can look like Tom Cruise..and not every1 can look like Angelina Jolie..:)..and as it is.. such a meager thing can not break our friendship and neither can this decrease my feelings for you.".
Abhi : "I am honored :)..u hav feelings for me..?? "
Pallu : "Hmmm ..yaaa..its the first time I am saying this to any1 ..but yes i do like you.."
Abhi : "Hmmm.. u know wt.. even i like u a lot..I wish we could meet up some day.."
Pallu : "yaa..the only problem is.. wen and how can we meet??..everyday we come to office;on sundays i have time..but my parents r a bit strict ,they dont like me hanging out wid boys (alone).. i cant lie to my parents that i m going to meet a frnd or sumthing coz they know all my friends....:("
Abhi :"ohh no...then?"
Pallu : "but see thr are so many Mallu functions..we can always meet thr..wt say"
Abhi : "ayyo !!! Bhayangara nalla aalojana aanalo..;) (woww..wt an idea)..now we just hav to wait for that day.."
They actually didn't have to wait for a long time..a traditional function was held where in they would actually get to see each other.
D day : She thinks something will click ..they meet ..she stammers a bit in front of him..and then..those three words from him.." Goto go now "...She seriously was not expecting this... atleast so soon..
" what ??"
"yeah ..bye ..sorry..will mail u tomorrow"
hmmm it didn't click ..it only left her clenching her teeth..she was left alone in a function...where in she hardly knew anyone of her age..poor thing ,the whole evening she sits in one corner trying to figure out WHAT HAD ACTUALLY HAPPENED..!!!
Next day she is sure not to send any mail to him..but then she gets a big mail from him..
" heyy sorry for last night..my parents wr thr..i got so conscious in front of them...that is why didn't talk much..by the way u wear specs..??..wts ur no. (power) and u have short hair now??...and ur height blah blah...u look like a school girl..blah blah...and y do u this blah blah, y do u that blah blah"
She was hurt..she thinks for 2 min..whether she should reply or just let it be..but then she decides to reply
" yes I do wear specs..so wt ??..Y u never knew i wear it..didnt Raj ever tell u abt this??..as it is even u wear it ..wts the big deal..and yeah cut my hair recently..and yeah ht ...just 5.2..y r u asking so many questions?? yesterday u left me alone..i thot that was so saaad"
Re: Reply: " No Raj never told me abt that..he told me other things about u.. that is y i wanted to meet u..i said i m sorry..but seriously u look so different from that photo i saw..I think u shud stop wearing ur specs and blah blah and more blah"
She is surprised not because she had misconceptions about herself, but with the sudden change in his behavior ,her heart was broken.That day she goes home sulking...closes the room door..she looks at herself in the mirror..removes her glasses..was she so ugly that she wasn't even given a chance..she had fought with the whole world for him..and he...he had hurt her..he was so mean..
With each day passing by..she finds his mails decreasing ..from 10 to 3 to 2 to none. He would mail only when he would get bored , then fight with her for one thing or the other..sometimes he would object on why she speaks to other friends on mail ,sometimes on some other thing. Its often funny how people in luv can act..so much pain from him still she tries hard from her side to atleast remain friends with him.. if nothing else.It was not that she didn't have a life before him..it was just that his absence had created a void in her heart ..their was something missing..she had really loved him. After a few days,a common friend tells her..how Abhi had confided in him that She is not beautiful..how she has started arguing with him over petty issues..how she has changed completely. They say it is hard to understand a woman..but its harder to understand a man...it was he who had changed.He was just not the one for her..she had been foolish enough to trust him..to tell him all she yearned for..her longings.They should have never met..may be she should have never loved..

All this time ,I can't believe I couldn't see,
kept in the dark..
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems ..
Got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought ..without a voice.. without a soul..
don't let me die here,
there must be something more
bring me to life...

She deletes all his mails from her inbox that she had been storing till now.. deletes his no...may be she got too involved ..she deserved somebody better..he wasn't worth even a tear from her eye..He was never hers ..May be it was time to just move on...

The beginning...


(PS: This is not a true life story ..it's purely based on the writers imagination. In case it has any resemblance to your life...nice try attention seeker..hah but this excuse is not going to work here..!! )